#selfie-reflection 🌺 During this holiday I’m reflecting a lot about everything what’s on my mind after such an intense year, and at the same time I’m wondering what will be next in the future. Sometimes it’s pretty overwhelming to be honest. I’m a very optimistic and idealistic person, so the first things I think about is what I’m grateful for and I dream and imagine new things I’m hoping for.
Of course when I look back on this year I have many mixed feelings and emotions about it. It is so so much to process. Despite I want to look at things from a bright side first – (what it taught me and made me change in the person I have become), there are definitely things I feel sad and angry about. For me it doesn’t matter that things aren’t easy, but for me it is important that things feel right, and that was on many aspects not the case last year. I constantly felt I had to choose the best option out of the worst options, and with the choices I made I had to be very tough to get through it, cause of the things that came with that choice which I couldn’t really accept. What I mean with that: I had to compromise on my values and principles. I always want to be true to myself, and true to what I stand for and what I feel is right.
What I’m relieved of for now, is to be and live on my own terms and standards again so I will not compromise any of these core values I have. When things are overwhelming from the past & the future I remind myself to be in this present moment and to be happy with the things I have (good health, safety, food on the table, a home, people & dogs who love me, a good life with possibilities to make it even better) which I feel so thankful about. I always have myself in every situation to make the best of the present moment, wherever I am. And I feel that I have power over many things about this right moment, how my attitude is and how I want to be. And a cliché but true; the things in the past lay in the past and stay in the past, which we cannot change anymore. In my core being I won’t ever “accept” some things that had happened, but I will not fight against it, neither I can change it cause it is in the past. I will fight for a better future though, for me and others.
Starting small: to take the power over this moment and myself, then over the next and the next. This strategy helped me a lot to get through this crisis year. I tend to look a lot at the now towards the future, what I envision and do the work for, and maybe that is my strength, but to live this moment the best I can will give me the joy to fully take it in and make it the best possible moment it can be!
I wish you can create a great moment as well today, for you, despite there will always be things that are hard, painful or not right. Take your power to make each present moment the best you can! 🌸 much love 💕 Lieke